So if you follow my personal IG or even my _fittobetwinned_ IG, you know that I have two herniated discs in my lower back. One is worse than the other, but both write ups say that the herniations are pushing on my nerve roots. This explains the weakness and pain I had/ have in my lower back and legs. Needless to say, the last few weeks have been tough.
A mix of heavy muscle relaxers, my anxiety and a bad mood made the last three weeks feel like I lived in a prison in my body....does that make sense? I've had so much help and I am so grateful. I have my moments of "poor me" because, yeah it does stink having pain daily, pain that I've been in and out of the last three weeks, but there are people who live with pain chronically. How selfish of me.
There are people who don't know when or if their pain will improve. I know mine will, with Physical Therapy, strength and because I am young I should bounce back easily. Although I know those things, sometimes the pain is annoying and I'm tired of dealing with it, that's when I started Pinterest searching "dealing with pain", which is when I found HOPE.
Hold On Pain Ends
It does, in one form or another. This life is so temporary. The decisions that I bare such weight in, those are temporary. Do you know what is forever though?
Heaven. That is for eternity. So if I'm meant to suffer, even temporarily here, I know that even though it feels like forever, it's not, because I believe in something more. And by no means is my pain I've experineced the last three weeks even something to compare to what others go through. Yes, for me it was hard and is still hard, because I want to be me again, but it's different from what the person next to me might be suffering...
Pain isn't only physical. It's emotional too. I myself have been tormented by anxiety and OCD, I've wished I was "normal" (a different post on that later). My point is, we can and will get through these pains in our lives. Use it to build you, not break you. I know, easier said than done.
If I've learned anything from this injury though; it is to stop living my life with so many restrictions, within reason. I want to enjoy things when I can, experience amazing things with my husband and children and stop letting fear rule my decisions, because in the end...I don't even have control. I like to think I do, but the truth is I don't.
So my friends, have hope. Whatever it is your enduring push through and you will make it to the other side, stronger and wiser than you were before.
-Nic
